Did I try hard enough?
What if I didn't?
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Saturday. April 17.
I woke up early. I showered. I came to Starbucks because it's walkable and I spent waaay too much money at Kopi's earlier this week.
Starbucks reeks of high school. Of skipped classes and stolen time. It feels like the time I spent trying to be someone else. That's the real reason I don't like coming. Not because of the bad politics and worse coffee (burnt!!), but because I remember watching her sit there, the small passionfruit ice tea between us, wishing I could be more like her. Funnier. Cuter.
I'm done with this unnecessary association. I'm done wishing I were someone else.
There are much, much bigger things to wish for.
Friday, April 16, 2010
Thursday, April 8, 2010
SAM
New sticker!
I love Secret Asian Man. Comics + Stereotype Breaking + Dear-Anti-Racist,-Don't-Be-So-Serious= Awesome.
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Comps Morning
I have taken 12 official Sociology courses:
Intro to Sociology
Sociology of Religion
Social Problems
Social Thought
Social Stratification
Global Impact: US in the World
Race and Ethnicity
Practicum in Sociology
Research Methods
Seminar in Sociology
Social Context in Community Development (with the wonderful Dwight Jackson)
And 3 courses that were very similar to Sociology:
Intro to Communications
Intro to Conflict Transformation
Intro to Women's Studies
All emotional craziness and paralyzing fear aside, I have prepared to the best of my ability.
I live and breathe this.
I will pass this test.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
sigh. First time in a long time that I've written anything. Sorry--- but I just haven't had the words to give you. Not that there's anyone who reads this now.
Emotionally, I've been on the up, which has been good. I can't decide if I'm actually doing better, or if I've just decided that I'm slow and I can't do all the things I think I should. Which may be doing better in and of itself.
Socially, I've been feeling the need to plant my feet. I'm so tired of moving around and getting to know new places and not having a real support system. Things have been moving where if things don't work out in DC, I'll be moving back to Chicago... which'll be really really nice.
School-wise:
Wednesday (tomorrow): Journalism Midterm, television script and corresponding print articleWednesday (2 weeks, April 7th): Comprehensive Exam: If I don't pass, I don't graduate.
Tuesday (3 weeks, April 13): Seminar Paper Presentations begin
My body is fighting against me.
It's telling me I'm tired even when I eat, sleep, and exercise well.
My laptop is acting funny... and I'm trying not to freak out.
Things'll get done. They have to.
Monday, February 15, 2010
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
This is me posting.
Yesterday was dr. MLK day.
I went to chapel. It was the sort of thing that used to fire me up.
Yes. There are people suffering.
Yes. God called us to love and serve the suffering.
.... but I just. can't. bring. myself. to move anymore.
I'm not checking in on Haiti.
I'm not triple checking where my goods come from.
I'm just trying to get through my day with some self-respect.
It's mostly just guilt and shame.
I went to chapel. It was the sort of thing that used to fire me up.
Yes. There are people suffering.
Yes. God called us to love and serve the suffering.
.... but I just. can't. bring. myself. to move anymore.
I'm not checking in on Haiti.
I'm not triple checking where my goods come from.
I'm just trying to get through my day with some self-respect.
It's mostly just guilt and shame.
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