On Giving Up

Peter Hong at New Community Church always says the reason Christians always fall into religion is unconditional Love and Grace could ask you to give up anything.

I know that deep deep down, my problem is that I love God's cause and not God Herself; but I'm hesitating.

Cuz there are so many things I don't want to give up.

Like my silly search for a man to love me.
Like my politics.
Like my hidden materialism.
Like all the things that I say I believe in but don't do in real life.

Now, I know that God would never ask of me things I don't already need to let go of, I just know it's going to be difficult. I hate to be told I'm wrong.

I can already feel it.

We just have to hope that God respects our struggle to follow His/Her will.

"Isn't that what someone wise once told me?"
"I don't feel like that person right now."
"That doesn't really matter. You are."